February 9th 2022

So life changes can be scary but they can also be exciting and that is something that I wanted to talk about in todays post.

Life changes are never easy and honestly all of us have gone through some big ones. One BIG one that I can think of is COVID 19 and all the restrictions that have been placed on us either through your local government or federal government. Everyone is being told who they can hang out with and what they can do and we are also being told where we can travel to. I have been seeing that lots of places are lifting their restrictions while my home province is no at this time and I am actually A-Okay with that not changing any time soon! We actually have just learned that some restrictions will be lifting shortly and I don't know how I feel about that because I really enjoy wearing my mask haha

Something I am constantly trying to figure out is how I can start my life and I can work towards getting some stress off my shoulders. I am constantly getting freaked out not knowing how I am going to pay my next bill and put money on all the debt that I owe. I am extremely worried about where I am going to get the money to pay off everything that I am owed. My life has been going up and down and I am not sure where I will be in the next 5 years because I don't what is going to happen in my life. When you talk about anxiety and panic attacks I swear that these are a daily occurrence for me and I am extremely worried that these will continue for the rest of my life.

When it comes to my relationship, I am at a point where I am very concerned because I don't know where I am going to be with it. I have been struggling so much with my relationship and my future because I thought at 26 I would be married or at least engaged and moved in with my partner. But instead here I am living with my mother and my boyfriend is struggling with his mental health and this is the beginning of the rest of our lives I hope. There are so many struggles that I am going through and I don't know what I am going to do. I just want to live on a farm land with my husband and have a kid and wake up everyday with the sun shining in on me every single day.

Well, this is all I have left to say for the day and I am signing off

Till next time,

Cait